Saturday, September 8, 2012

How do you say goodbye?

How do you say goodbye to a piece of who you are?

How do you let go of someone so dear?

Over the past few months, I have watched my father slowly decline.

Over the past few weeks, I have seen him wither away.

I have watched as so many family and friends have come to visit him and taken photos with him.  I admit, I have avoided doing that.  I want to remember him as he was a year ago.  Still strong.  Still energetic.  Still smiling. 

Still looking like my Daddy.

Our hearts are breaking slowly as we watch him fade away.  If only we could hold onto him longer.  If only we could breathe new life into him.  Revive him.  Strengthen him.

I always just assumed we had another decade or more with him.  After all, his parents were much older when they passed on.  But, I suppose even if we did have 10 more years, it would be too soon then as well.  The reality is, we will never be ready to say goodbye.

So we leave it in God's hands.

We trust in His sovereignty and His timing, even though we are filled with sorrow.

Soon, we will place our beloved father into his Father's loving arms. 

Until then, please pray that peace will surround us all during these difficult days.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." 

~Philippians 4:6-7